Awareness Cards

I can't believe it's been a year since I've posted to this blog. A year wasted in essence.
I've been working with Susan Halliday's Awareness Cards lately. I bought them years ago and found them buried in my garage recently in the bottom of a box of books. Every day I've been drawing one card. Then I read what it means in the accompanying book.

Tonight I can't sleep. I slept for about an hour and half and woke up again. I've been anxious. I don't know if it's just the anxiety of a new year beginning or the changes that I feel are in the wind right now. I feel like something has a grip on me. It doesn't help any that two days ago I drew the Alien Beings card and then a few hours ago I drew the Spiritual Gift card.

It's times like these that I miss having a dog to cuddle up with. There is something about dogs that is grounding and centering for me. Cats don't do it for me. Like this afternoon I tried to take a nap and the cat come in and stood on my hair.  Not very useful.

It's 2:30 AM. on New Year's Eve.

Opportunities Lost

For many years I was booked every year to do reading at parties.  Now I don't have the same connections I once had so I'm not being of service.  I just sit at home hanging out with my boyfriend, which is nice, but I miss the excitement. Maybe I should look for a new agent or work on publicizing myself.  I need to be more aggressive in 2011. In a few days I'll be 53, and maybe I've just gotten too laid back for my own good.